Rapuh

“Menurutmu, kenapa dia sangat rapuh Al?”

“Lha bukankah semua manusia itu memang rapuh kecuali yang Dia kuatkan? Manusia bisa sedemikian kerasa kepala dalam hidupnya, hanya karena dia tidak tahu harus hidup seperti apalagi kalau tidak keras kepala, karena hanya itu yang dia tahu. Dia bisa sedemikian sok menuntut rasionalisasi segala hal, hanya karena bahwa cara berpikir itu saja yang dia kenali, dan kalau tidak demikian, cara pikir dan hidupnya seakan hancur lebur. Dia bisa sedemikian seenaknya dalam hidup, memperturutkan segala hasratnya dan tak peduli dengan yang lain, padahal itu hanya menunjukkan bahwa dirinya hanya jadi boneka dari hasrat-hasratnya. Atau dia bisa juga membuat semacam konstruksi pandangan hidup yang dibangunnya dari konsep dan tafsir plus apologi ini itu sedemikian rumit, namun itu tak ubahnya jaring laba-laba; saling ikat mengikat rumit dan kuat, semua mengarah ke dirinya, ke egonya, namun karena sarang laba-laba itu serapuh-rapuhnya rumah, saat konstruksi itu hancur, hancur juga hidupnya. Jadi, siapa sih yang mau ngaku-ngaku gak rapuh? Cuma Dia ‘yang menguatkan pasir tempat pijakan dengan menurunkan hujan’….”

(Obrolan santai sambil ngopi…)

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Ghazal 119 – I don’t need a companion who is…

Ghazal 119

i don’t need
a companion who is
nasty sad and sour

the one who is
like a grave
dark depressing and bitter

a sweetheart is a mirror
a friend a delicious cake
it isn’t worth spending
an hour with anyone else

a companion who is
in love only with the self
has five distinct characters

stone hearted
unsure of every step

lazy and disinterested
keeping a poisonous face

the more this companion waits around
the more bitter everything will get
just like a vinegar
getting more sour with time

enough is said about
sour and bitter faces
a heart filled with desire for

sweetness and tender souls
must not waste itself with unsavory matters

Translated by Nader Khalili
Rumi, Fountain of Fire
Cal-Earth, September 1994

setelah beberapa saat..

ketika hatimu remuk
pikiranmu yang meyakinkan bahwa kamu bisa mendapatkan keinginanmu
dan ternyata tidak

tunggulah beberapa saat..
sambil memohon bantuanNya untuk memberi cahaya agar semua lebih terlihat dengan baik.., menerangkan sittuasi sekitar hatimu

setelah beberapa saat..,
kamu tau dan menyadari bahwa hatimu tidak remuk
sama sekali

kamu bahkan melihat kilauan kilauan permata dari makna peristiwa yang baru saja kau alami
meresap dalam hatimu
dan membuatnya lebih kuat

tunggulah beberapa saat..
dalam ketenangan
sambil memohon kepadaNya

Dia mendengarmu,
dan memberikan selalu hadiah hadiah berkilau..

Rolling in the deep

“Rolling In The Deep”

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, it’s bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ‘head and sell me out and I’ll lay your ship [shit] bare
See how I leave with every piece of you
Don’t underestimate the things that I will do

There’s a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it’s bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can’t help feeling
We could have it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it, to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I’ve heard one on you
And I’m gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Make a home down there
As mine sure won’t be shared

(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love remind me of us
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
I can’t help feeling
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it, to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it, with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You’ll pay me back in kind and reap just what you’ve sown

(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You’re gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

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